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12.45am
this is the day when it all started officially.
it was just unexpected that it really happens.
love starts to bloom when our first met, 180210
it just happened so quickly that i couldn't realised that it was getting stronger
webcaming with love
we start to webcam and talk nonsense with each other eventhough i just knew him.
i get more comfortable talking and joke around with him as i can see that he's also the 'merepek' type.
haha
we webcam and wanna know what!!
HE SANG FOR ME!
actually he refused to but at last. he still did.
and gosh!
his voice. makes me MELT
but after he sang for me, he send me a link of a song.
and h asked me to sing him that song
which I HAD NO IDEA ON WHAT SONG IT IS
i tried my best to memorise the song.
he asked me to practice and sing for him when he's back from his shower.
my heart was pounding like hell! gosh!
haha
then when he's back. FUH.
he's so cute, fresh, handsome, i dont know how to describe he's cuteness and all.
haha
i thought he didnt remember about the song thingy. but... he did. -.-"
haha
but i tried a lil bit only. NOT CONFIDENT AT ALL
gosh. haha
then.. he had to go off to meet his friends =(
i was down when he had to go. but. im fine though.
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On our first meet, 180210
i met him at his house area with his friends and all.
i was not confident that i can get along with his friends.
we went to boboi's block.
lepak-ing. till night. that was when i directly meet him straight after school.
keyra, boboi, wal, nad, nash was there too.
then we blablabla.
BUT~! he asked me to sing. gosh. i was damn F** SHY!!
i felt like someone was straggling me when i want to sing
gosh. haha
then when i was singing. his eyes turns out as if it gonna pop out anytime. haha
he was shocked because of my voice. and i was too. but about his cuteness reaction. gosh!!
=D
then blablabla... sing sing sing....
at last, i gotta go back home.
&& he send me back home. awwww......................
i was fuckin' touched. seriously.
this is one of the time when i really fell for him. but had not confessed it yet.
cuz it may be too early.
then i salam him before going up the lift.
One of the day when we meet
we lepak as per normal but i do my homework too.
keyra, nash, lalat, jib and black was thee too. but some of them need to go off early.
and at night, only haziq, me and keyra left.
keyra was lyying down on one bench while me and haziq was sitting on the opposite bench.
few minutes later, haziq was too tired as he did not get enough sleep the day before.
so i let him to lie his head down on my leg.
i felt so love at that moment actually. ahha
ok back.
erm. then i played with his hair, hand, guitar and cigarette .
i was playing with his cigarette when it fell into the guitar hole.
keyra and haziq was damn shocked. haha. their facial expression was damn cute.
ahha
okok... but then.. i just slip my hand into the hole and pick up the cigarette. like no one business.
haha
they were shocked that my hand was as slim as a foolscap paper. haha
then soon, it was keyra turn to go off.
we said goodbye to her and remain in that position.
then soon..
our lips started to type out all the love words, confessions.
gosh.
then blablabla.... he was damn happe and glad. and i felt the same way too.
awwwwww..........
BUT I DID A MISTAKE.
I WENT TO SAY OUT ANOTHER PERSON'S NAME
which was hafiz
he was damn pissed off.
i can really see that.
i felt so guilty. but seriously I DIDN'T REALISED or MEANT IT AT ALL DEAR.
im truly sorry.
maybe my tongue was too short that it just stopped half way through. hehe
my heart was pounding fast as when i saw crystals of sadness flows down his cheek.
i felt like crying but i just can show it out.
i'm only able t cry inside. and seriously i can really feel it inside. the sadness and guiltiness.
sobsob. and gosh.
naturally, i kissed his forehead.
i thought it would stop him from being more sad.
but THE CRYSTALS FORMED WAS IMPOVING TO WORSE.
omg.
i was blank!
hais. but.
when he was chilling down he confessed that the tears was both joy and sadness. i was happy partially only.
i tried to comfort him as much as i can eventhough i am smaller than him. really..
haha
at last. we was going fine.
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as usual it was like our daily routine to meet. haha.
we lepak and do my homework at the sametime with his friends at pondok darah.
then blablablablablablabla...........
after that at night, when everyne had went back home, only left me ad him.
it was 11pm ++
i was late. then i recieved call from my mum.
so i tell her where i am and she said that she gonna fetch me
and you wanna know what!
he's facial expression changed! cramp.
mixture of shy plus afraid.
haha
DAMN FUCKIN' CUTE i tell you. gosh!
ahha
erm okok.
then we waited and waited and at last, my parents reached. my mum get out of the car to see where i am. so i went to her and salam.
haziq was behind walking like a zombie. haha. damn cute. seriously.
he was afraid and shy.
ahha
i tell my mum that this was the haziq that i've talked about.
then she smiled. but haziq still....................the same. reaction-less. hahaha
then blablabla.
at night the talked on the phone.
we confessed our love once again. and my and my mountain of sorry's for him beacause of my stupid mouth about our previous incident.
then we talktalktalk until one moment....
he proposed me.
AWWWWWWWWWWW.............
that happened on the 080310 at 12.45am
i was damn fuckin' HAPPY LAH SIOT.
ahahahah
now.....i really wish and hope he will be my last.
i really damn love him.
and i really do.
p/s: sayang... if you're reading this... with my whole heartedly i want to seek for apologise. sorry for all my harsh words and misunderstanding. but just want you to know that i've never had a black idea or bad impression about you. and i just want you to know that...
I LOVE YOU DEAR
GABRIELLEZA LOVE HAZIQAMBENG!
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LOVE ME;
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